October 17, 2015
Dear Lucky,
Our paths crossed extraordinarily. We intertwined deeply. We embraced each other quickly. Then parted ways. What was your purpose?
Forever, I secretly wanted. To know you forever. Be mine forever. Love you forever. Love me forever. Soulmates forever. Were you my soulmate?
My soulmate. You’re a soulmate of many. A soulmate that unbeknownst tore my walls down and revealed a new layer about myself. You smacked me awake. You made me live. You made me love. Then you left. What was the purpose?
You made me a woman. The other woman. An empowered woman. Ecstatically fulfilled woman. A super woman. Was that your purpose?
I miss you. I can't believe it's been three years. You still linger in my mind. Illusions get the best of me. I smile. Then I remember I don’t know you. Who are you these days?
We happened perfectly, divinely. Our romance could have been for the books. Now, Us lives in my perfectly suspended memory. But I can’t seem to let you go. For you to be you and for me to be me. Separate lives. Continents apart. Why can’t I Let It Go?
I was strong enough to let you in then I’m strong enough to let you go. Even if I don't know your purpose. To fit your puzzle piece into my story. I need to move on with my story. When will I know your purpose?
‘See you soon’ - we said. (You would never be mine again.) ‘Hope you stay beautiful. Hope you stay willing’ - he said. Hope… Stay… Always… Never came. That was your purpose.
Always I remember you.
Siempre xx Sandy
